I honestly have no idea what is going on with my life lately. And I don’t know, I feel like putting it out on tumblr might not be a good idea because some people seem to have a problem with that lately, but all of this is getting to be way too much for me and I have to get it out somehow. I have no one to talk to anymore. No one. Anyone I used to talk to about my problems or my personal life…they’re gone. I am just so lonely and so frustrated because there is nothing I can do to fix it. My best friend in the entire world needs time and space away from me and I have no idea why or how long that will be for or if it will even be temporary at all. I feel like we talk it out and we’re going to try to make things better and then it just gets bad again but I don’t know why. I’m trying so hard to make things okay again, but I can’t. And in the process of losing her, I feel like I’ve lost my other friends and gained enemies when I haven’t even done anything wrong. All of this hatred and this judgement and this ignoring me and not wanting to be my friend is killing me. It’s all getting to me way too much. I literally have one friend now. All my other friends either screwed me over or just left. And it’s not fair because I know I’m a good friend. I’m not perfect, I make mistakes, we all do…but I am always there for my friends. Always. And anything I ever do in a friendship is because I care about the other person. I would never intentionally try to hurt my friends, especially not my best friends. And I would think my friends would realize this. I’m just so unhappy now.
(Source: 4lien)
